Concentration, the Lack ofThe creak of the door dictates my working pace. It's the door that separates the office hallway from the hall where the men cut the metal. The creak means I have to hide the browser and have either Excel or Oscar open on the computer screen. Anyone entering the office can have a good look at my screen right away, you see.Typing out orders or invoicing customers sounds different from that of answering comments or writing down plot twists for my latest projects, so as long as I hear the door creak again, I work. And I work hard. And when orders keep popping up to Outlook and the fax machine keeps singing, I don't open the browser at all. But now it's quiet; Finland's metal industry seems a bit down. The boutique was supposed to close its doors during our summer holidays season for just two weeks, but earlier this week we were told we'll be away for three weeks.Yet, there is certain guilt in this game of hide-and-seek: whenever I hear that creak my heart tries to jump out of my chest. I
27. Lost and FoundOn my 13th birthday, I sold myselfSigned my name and got a rifleTried to become a machineFor my 14th birthday they had a presentYou gonna go to war, girlYou gonna goHad no choice but to follow their ruleKill or get killedRefused to torture the captivesGot a message my uncle had diedActivists and their bombs- their most favourite excuse of all11 years of committing sinsTheir logo burning the back of my jacketGot a medal for my crimesOn it engraved a text,For heroic and honorific actionThey placed it over my heartI wanted to scream but that one was already deadStarted to abuse their systemDigital consciousnessA dreamland for lonely hearts and crazy mindsWe played the godsTake these, dear, they'll give you your wings backPills and injectionsDrinks and hallucinationsForgot what's really real but that was fineThen once I woke up for my shotCouldn't find a vein from my arm anymoreInstead got run through by a bladeThat man's face a blank maskSaid nothing
Obsessive LoveII want toI want to get to knowI want to get to know youBe your best fiend, closest friendFor you, I'd cross the deadly fieldA warzone of lonely heartsII want toI want to get insideI want to get inside of youKnow all your deepest secrets, deepest shamesSee what's really in your mind's darkest shadesA taint painted on our chestsII want youI want you to knowI want you to know meInside out, you and me, foreverLet's walk down this path, togetherA new future just for usII want youI want you insideI want you inside of meDo it, baby, in every innuendo out thereAnytime you want, anywhereNo more lonely hearts, no more games,and the taint shall be gone'cause we are together
The Fall of a Person一、あさ、こうちゃをのみます。へやはしずかです。Ichi,Asa, koucha o nomimasu. Heya wa shizuka desu.二、わたしのあい、ななつくつした…せかいのそと。Ni,Watashi no ai, nanatsu kutsushita... Sekai no soto.三、おさけ。つきのちかてつ。ゆめにきくです。San,Osake. Tsuki no chikatetsu. Yume ni kiku desu.
My Life Be LikeWhat exactly am I doing here?
26. Forever and a DayWe sat on your window pane.Silence and warmth, distance and comfort.Grey clouds gathered in the skies.We laid down on the floor.Raindrops fell hard against the glass.Time ticked on but for us.